apalah arti sebuah nama…

Indra

The name Indra creates the urge to be creative and original, we emphasize that it causes a blunt expression that alienates others. This name, when combined with the last name, can frustrate happiness, contentment, and success, as well as cause health weaknesses through tension or accidents to the head.

Your first name of Indra creates individuality, independence, self-confidence, initiative, and an inclination to physical activity. You are not inclined to merge your opinions and viewpoints with others, to accept compromise, or to work in a subservient position against your will. Your expression is invariably quite direct and candid. Others find it difficult to accept your domineering and, at times, argumentative manner.

Indra Simalango

The biggest factor is that your combined names cause you to be taken advantaged of by other people. These circumstances will continue as long as you use these names.

The combined names of Indra Simalango give you high ideals and a strong desire to serve in some humanitarian or socially beneficial capacity. They take you into positions where you work with people, listen to the problems of others, and help to resolve differences. Financial accumulation is limited under these names as they detract from confidence in yourself. These names undermine progress in the business world. You procrastinate in carrying out your plans and often take a negative attitude because of a lack of self-assurance. These names tend to make you indecisive and over-sensitive so that you feel the problems of others too greatly. Your health could be detrimentally affected through kidney or fluid troubles.

Indra Antonius

Your combined names of Indra Antonius show that you are taken into relatively stable, responsible positions where you work with people. Although conditions are fairly progressive, there is an underlying passivity in your response to your opportunities. You are attracted to positions in which you assist and support others, and express sympathy and understanding. You experience a generally stable, settled home life and you are drawn to assume responsibilities for others. However, you must guard against both indecision and worry, which could be sources of mental tension.

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lagu tutup tahun

Well, masih beraura campur aduk di akhir tahun, sepertinya perasaan melankolisku ga lengkap tanpa adanya sebuah lagu pengiring, such a backsound for a closing remarks like usually happened in the end of a movie.

But for this year, I don't think "Auld Lang Syne" is the best choice. For one reason, so standard I thought. Compare to all the things happened to me this year, this song isn't quite match. And after spent a couple of hours, searching a lot of old songs (I don't know why, but seems old songs more reliable and "nyeceb" than a new one. ) , I've found this song.
Man, the lyrics is so me….

The Verve – Bittersweet Symphony

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life
Trying to make ends meet, you're a slave to the money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah
No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold , I am here in my mold
But I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold, no, no, no, no, no

Well, I've never prayed,
But tonight I'm on my knees, yeah
I need to hear some sounds that recognize the pain in me, yeah
I let the melody shine, let it cleanse my mind , I feel free now
But the airwaves are clean and there's nobody singing to me now

No change, I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold , I am here with my mold
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold, no, no, no, no, no

(Well have you ever been down?)
(I can't change, I can't change…)
(Ooooohhhhh…)

'Cause it's a bittersweet symphony this life
Trying to make ends meet, trying to find some money then you die
I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down
You know the one that takes you to the places where all the veins meet, yeah
You know I can't change, I can't change, I can't change,
but I'm here in my mold, I am here in my mold
And I'm a million different people from one day to the next
I can't change my mold, no,no,no,no,no
I can't change my mold, no,no,no,no,no
I can't change my mold, no,no,no,no,no

(It justs sex and violence melody and silence)
(It justs sex and violence melody and silence)
(I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down)
(It justs sex and violence melody and silence)
(I'll take you down the only road I've ever been down)
(Been down)
(Ever been down)
(Ever been down)(Lalalalalalaaaaaaaa…)
(Ever been down)
(Ever been down)
(Have you ever been down?)
(Have you ever been down?)
(Have you ever been down?)

catatan akhir tahun (2)

Tuhan,
Berilah aku kekuatan untuk mengubah apa-apa yang bisa aku ubah,
dan untuk ikhlas menerima apa-apa yang tidak bisa aku ubah…

catatan akhir tahun

Somebody said that, well…, quite a number of people said that our happiness lies in our own hands. If we decide to be happy, then we will be. If we allow someone else to ruin our lives and give them a chance to make us feel sorry and sad… then it will happen. The practice is not simple at all though ! It’s not a good feeling to have a hole in your heart and a thousands of elephants in your stomach…. And when you’re thinking that there is something broken that you just can not restore… it just… feel so bitter… Boy, sometimes I wonder am I the only spoiled person in this world, who always hoping to grab somebody’s hand to move on???

Then I am thinking, there are so many thing in this world that are uncertain. And if I get worry about each of them, I will go crazy! I miss the times when I just trust that He already arranges the best for us. I miss the times when I have faith that He will never leave us. Like one of my friend said “God didn’t bring me this far to leave me now.” When you’re feeling that you are in a big hole, it is hard to see that maybe the hole is shallow and you just can stand up and get out. Or maybe some people just love to wallow in their own misery.

Well, I’ve learned that sometimes when you already try your best and things just won’t change, better give up to Him. It may sound like running away from problems, but now… I think as human who has limitation, we just can not carry all the world in our shoulder. But using His strength, I believe, I can continue my life.

My mom is a great teacher for this. I wish I can be like her in dealing with life. My problems are nothing but I’ve lost in my jungle of despair.

*inspired by a short-but-meaningfull-life-story from one of my senior*

catatan akhir tahun

Somebody said that, well…, quite a number of people said that our happiness lies in our own hands. If we decide to be happy, then we will be. If we allow someone else to ruin our lives and give them a chance to make us feel sorry and sad… then it will happen. The practice is not simple at all though ! It's not a good feeling to have a hole in your heart and a thousands of elephants in your stomach…. And when you're thinking that there is something broken that you just can not restore… it just… feel so bitter… Boy, sometimes I wonder am I the only spoiled person in this world, who always hoping to grab somebody's hand to move on???

Then I am thinking, there are so many thing in this world that are uncertain. And if I get worry about each of them, I will go crazy! I miss the times when I just trust that He already arranges the best for us. I miss the times when I have faith that He will never leave us. Like one of my friend said "God didn't bring me this far to leave me now." When you're feeling that you are in a big hole, it is hard to see that maybe the hole is shallow and you just can stand up and get out. Or maybe some people just love to wallow in their own misery.

Well, I've learned that sometimes when you already try your best and things just won't change, better give up to Him. It may sound like running away from problems, but now… I think as human who has limitation, we just can not carry all the world in our shoulder. But using His strength, I believe, I can continue my life.

My mom is a great teacher for this. I wish I can be like her in dealing with life. My problems are nothing but I've lost in my jungle of despair.

*inspired by a short-but-meaningfull-life-story from one of my senior*

The (Great) Party

Sebuah renungan di malam natal…

The (Great) Party
As you well know, we are getting closer to my birthday. Every year there is a celebration in my honor and I think that this year the celebration will be repeated.

During this time there are many people shopping for gifts, there are many radio announcements, TV commercials, and in every part of the world everyone is talking that my birthday is getting closer and closer.

It is really very nice to know, that at least once a year, some people think of me.

As you know, the celebration of my birthday began many years ago.

At first people seemed to understand and be thankful of all that I did for them, but in these times, no one seems to know the reason for the celebration.

Family and friends get together and have a lot of fun, but they don’t know the meaning of the celebration. I remember that last year there was a great feast in my honor. The dinner table was full of delicious foods, pastries, fruits, assorted nuts and chocolates. The decorations were exquisite and there were many, many beautifully wrapped gifts.

But, do you want to know something? I wasn’t invited.

I was the guest of honor and they didn’t remember to send me an invitation.

The party was for me, but when that great day came, I was left outside, they closed the door in my face .. and I wanted to be with them and share their table.

In truth, that didn’t surprise me because in the last few years all close their doors to me. Since I wasn’t invited, I decided to enter the party without making any noise. I went in and stood in a corner.

They were all drinking; there were some who were drunk and telling jokes and laughing at everything. They were having a grand time.

To top it all, this big fat man all dressed in red wearing a long white beard entered the room yelling Ho-Ho-Ho! He seemed drunk. He sat on the sofa and all the children ran to him, saying: “Santa Claus, Santa Claus” as if the party were in his honor!

At midnight all the people began to hug each other; I extended my arms waiting for someone to hug me and do you know no-one hugged me.

Suddenly they all began to share gifts. They opened them one by one with great expectation. When all had been opened, I looked to see if, maybe, there was one for me. What would you feel if on your birthday everybody shared gifts and you did not get one?

I then understood that I was unwanted at that party and quietly left.

Every year it gets worse. People only remember the gifts, the parties, to eat and drink, and nobody remembers me.

I would like this Christmas that you allow me to enter into your life.

I would like that you recognize the fact that almost two thousand years ago I came to this world to give my life for you, on the cross, to save you.

Today, I only want that you believe this with all your heart.

I want to share something with you. As many didn’t invite me to their party, I will have my own celebration, a grandiose party that no one has ever imagined, a spectacular party. I’m still making the final arrangements.

Today I am sending out many invitations and there is an invitation for you. I want to know if you wish to attend and I will make a reservation for you and write your name with golden letters in my great guest book.

Only those on the guest list will be invited to the party.

Those who don’t answer the invite will be left outside. Be prepared because when all is ready you will be part of my great party.

See you soon.
I Love you!
Jesus